Another Flight of Icarus

I know it hurts. It lingers. Perhaps, for the first time, you feel like this, and it seems like it will last forever—but it won't. You just need to endure, to persevere, to push forward day by day, week by week, for as long as you need to, because...

One morning, you will simply wake up and realize that it no longer hurts. Everything that could hurt has burned down to the ground. Inside you, there's emptiness—a void that only a few people, and only rarely, truly feel. The void is all the greater because it once held a fullness that dwelled in its place. This state might last for days or weeks, but you become aware that the hardest part is behind you, that you've finally hit rock bottom, and from here on, it will only get easier. Even if you slip again, the fall won't last long—you'll get back up much faster and move forward. You push off from the bottom as you head back to the surface.

And then, after some time, you will finally wake up feeling rested, well-slept. You'll realize that, on that day, the sun shines differently—just like in those days before everything that pulled you down. You'll understand that it’s all over. You'll see that a new life has been born from beneath the ashes, that your metamorphosis is complete. As you break free from the cocoon of your old self, spreading wings stronger than ever before, you reach for new heights without fear, proud of yet another victory over yourself.

Beside you are all those who have never let you down. 

Ahead of you are new goals, plans, and dreams. 

Behind you is a life that wasn't worthy of you, with everyone who didn't deserve you.

You’re smiling again. 

You're happy again. 

You're strong again. 

You're free again.

You are yourself again.

One Day...

You’ll listen to stories from someone else’s lips,
They’ll spin you tales and you’ll see the lies.
You’ll dream dreams beneath his hands,
You’ll dream dreams, and long for desires,
An endless void will divide us...


You’ll leave all our days behind,
Both the radiant and the bleak.
A hazy trace will linger in your mind,
Like mist dissolving in the breeze.
You’ll forget the vows we made,
For it was nothing but a fleeting game.
You’ll forget the feelings,
For they will never return.


But one day...
When you feel utterly alone,
You’ll remember the solitude of One.
And on that day,
You’ll recall a distant day,
And kisses from a stranger’s lips,
And embraces in his distant arms,
And dreams born in his foreign mind—
Dreams of us...


And you will be strong...


You’ll hide us from the world,
As we come alive again,
Smiling together,
Deep within your heart and mind.
But then...
Too weak to admit it,
You’ll hide us even from yourself...


And now...
Look at me once more,
A stranger with every step I take.
Feel my solitude here,
Where I’ve come just not to be alone.


Something is breaking inside you...
Isn't it our dream?
Something is breaking inside you...
Swear it’s not us.

Agmonser

Before The Rain

I’ve been here before, my love.

I know this path ahead by heart...

I love you more than words could ever say;

I love you as I watch you slip away.

And I would tell you:

“Don’t leave — you’ll regret it,

But by then, it will be too late.”

And I would tell you:

“Don’t be afraid.

I’m here for you,

And I want you by my side

Till my very last breath.”

And I would tell you:

“Don’t be foolish.

A love like this doesn’t sprout after the rain...

Not just like that.”

But I’ve already been here, my love.

My words won’t reach you

Like they used to before.

Though I love you more and more

With each new midnight,

With every new dawn.

That’s why I stay silent, my love.

I bury my words

Behind stone walls,

Under miles of earth

Where cold water streams,

Cooling down desires and dreams,

So you’ll never be reminded again

Of the one who loved you

More than words could ever tell.

I’ve already been here, my love.

I know these paths too well...

I love you, but I can’t beg you:

“Give me your hand.

I don’t want you to be lured

By a world that devours the majestic and pure.

Hold on to me,

Stay true to us—

If I lose you now,

We may never meet again.”

I can’t beg, but trust me,

I’ve been here before, my love.

I know where every path leads,

But I can’t walk ours alone.

Though I still stand strong,

In front of the storm,

And I still wait,

With the last of my strength,

For you,

My Sun from the East.

If you hear me now,

Come.

Soon, nothing will be the same.

If silence and solitude break,

Instead of laughs and open arms,

You’ll find just pieces of the ember’s flame—

Remains of the heart that beats for us.

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The rain will come,

And it will wash away the trails.

Where will we be then,

My love?

Shall we stand together,

On our porch,

Sheltered from unrest,

Far from pain?

Or wander roads

That even eternity can’t join again?

Xandy