Instead of goodbye

I'm gone

Just a shadow remained in your mind

The illusion of what I never was

I'm gone

And I'm already too far

To hear to see anything

Hours turned into days

Days turned into weeks

Into years

Into eternity

Which finally stood between us

I'm drowned

Under poisonous flood of waves

Those which you couldn't restrain

I'm drowned

You won't hear me

Anymore

As you couldn't hear me

In all those nights

When I was calling for you

When I was imploring you

Not to become

All that I couldn't forget

I fade away

Like a shooting star

In the forgotten dawn sky

I fade away

Like a trace of extinguished hope

In the heart which said:

"Let him strive endlessly

 And see how everything's in vain..."

I fade away

Like the will in a weary soul

Cursed to walk

The same path over and over again

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But you

Just don't mind

You'll forget it all

Like all my truths that you disguise

Behind the shroud woven in lies

For the sake of future

Without us

I won't deny

With a single word

Or single deed

Our fate is already sealed

And all you need is your peace

From everything

That we could become

(So just)

Stay

Illusive

Distant

Pale

Stay

Doubtful

Silent

Scared

Stay

One of the countless ordinary stars

In the ever changing deceptive skies

The ones I navigate between the times

Stay

Cold as you prefer

As who you are

Now

Stay

Brave

So far

Far away

Stay

You don't know...

You don't know,

There's one

Who listens to your thoughts

And steers the prow

Down through their stream

You don't know,

This night

Hides trails of the beasts

And one angel

Watch over you keeps

You don't know,

How doubt

Could hurt you

More than all evil

Inflicted by the world

You don't know,

How love

Like a fire has to burn

And to scorch

Proving herself to you

You don't know,

That sun

Shows all of his might

When goes down

And cold shadows conquer the night

You don't know,

There's one

Who listens to your heart

And through the rain of his soul

Tries to paint a rainbow for you

You don't know...

Not so typical Universe story

Universe... 

Vast, possibly infinite, but beyond our comprehension; rich in matter, but the most of it appears empty to us; mainly lethally cold for the human standards, but nowhere at the absolute zero.

Living in such Universe could be terrifying experience for someone who has left the warmth of the lost planet and who dwells alone in Bootes void, for example. 

Discovering a new Sun, building up a new, vivid, colorful and warm world, full of life, full of will to live, full of passion and desire, is like finding the lost paradise.

Once you found it, how would you call yourself if you despised it, if you left that all, going back into the same freezing emptiness, where you never truly belonged to?

Once you found it, wouldn't you embrace your heaven, wouldn't you appreciate it more than all that cold, vast, empty space around, for the rest of the time you've got left for yourself?

Once you found it you'd know what I was talking about.

If you never found it, then maybe, you've never belonged there.

If you never found it, then maybe, you've just wasted your time reading these words.

Missing you

Cold and distant world, three days away from the supposed star appearance in its local system, although prepared to spend the rest of its days spinning and revolving in the dark till the black hole takes it away.